DEAREST DAIRY..

CONTINUATION

2008-12-31T20:06:00.000-08:00

NOTE:
this note is very important.. this is just a reminder for you.. this post is just a continuation of my story that i'm talking about a few days past.. if you want to be connected to my story, i recommend you to ready my past few entries that is related to this.. the first one is the "rainy day".. you can find it in my entry intitled SERIES OF TOPIC.. the second one was the "it comes to an end".. you can find it under the entry that intitled NEW YEAR, NEW LIFE.. it's has a connection to each other.. by the way, i have a site where yoou can find different poems that i made.. just visit it here.. =]
BTW, thanks for commenting at my previous post especially those who gave me some advices about this problem but i hope the ending of this story will be okei with you and you'll still support me on this.. thanks.. =] this post was wrote on the 31st of december but published on the 16th day of january.. sorry for the late post..

Back to The Story

As i said, i think he really deserve the "karma".. but i still love him and i now he feel the same at me. okei.. i look stupid now but i can't control my heart.. i tried to use my mind and it always come up to.. "mahal ka pa niya.. hindi niya nman sinabi na hindi ka niya mhal.. he still love you" it's always like that.. and finally, i realized that it will never be ended if it is not so clear for us.. so i tell him that i want to talk to him inperson and tell me the things he suppose to tell me.. everything that i should know to clarify the things that is so unclear.. at first he rejected my offer but afterwards, he agreed to it.. i suspected that he was so scared to face me and i was right.. the time came and we met again after the break up.. he was with his friends and me? of course i'm with my friends too.. we went to a restaurant or look like a restaurant for me.. hehe my friends and his friends choose another table, away from us so we can talk privately.. well, we ordered a food and as the food served, we ate. no one talk at first and to break the silence, i started our conversation.. i begin with a line...." bakit mo yun ginawa? grounded lang nman aquh kaya di aquh sau nakatext.. tpos sa ganoon kadaling panahon nkahanap k na agad ng kapalit?" he was just listening, so i continued... "anuh ba ung nangyari? ganon na ba talaga ka dali?" i have so many question for him in that time and after that he started to talk.. "sorry... hindi ko nman alam na grounded ka eh.. nangyari na eh.. sorry.." my temper loosen.. i can't talk anymore and i felt that i'm freezing.. after that... i asked.. "mahal muh ba cya?" he didn't response.. and i continued... "titigilan lang kita kung masasabi muh na hindi moh na aquh mhal.." but he refused to response on that.. he just said that.... "maghihiwalay nman tayo pagnagcollege hah.. maganda na nga ngaun kasi maaga pa.. hindi pa maxado masakit.. liligawan nman kita sa college eh.. promise.. ndi naman aquh seryoso sa girl eh.. sorry" i responsed... "college? tagal p nun.. tska panu aquh maka2cguro na li2gawan muh aquh ulit.. tska dahil lang doon naggive up ka? hindi p nman sure na sa ibang school aquh papasok hah.." he said.. "basta sa college liligawan kita kahit matagal aqung manligaw..".. i think of it.. i know it will not happened.. he doesn't love the girl he was courting and he don't say that he doesn't love me.. god! what i suppose to do? i really don't know that time of what i should do.. i just said that..." mahal mo pa ba aquh?" he didn't reply for the second time around.. he just ignoring it.. and in a few moments..............
he started to cry.......
in that moment, i felt so happy even it wasn't a good time for rejoicing.. now i know the answer.. he still love me.. he really do love me.. knowing him for 10 months, he is not the type of guy who will cry because of a girl.. and it was his first time to cry.....
for our relief... "cge na nga.. basta pagcollege ligawan muh quh ulit..hehe" he smiled and said.. "ang bait muh talaga.." but he still crying in that time even he gave me his sweetest smile..
we went home happy.. happy.. happy..

in my thoughts:
correct me if i'm wrong..

if a guy cry in front of you would you believe that he doesn't love you anymore? for me i will never believe that he doesn't love me.. and base from the situation i can say that he still love me.. evidence: first, he never say or admit that he doesn't love me anymore.. he always change the topic or sometimes he doesn't talk about it.. second, he admitted that he doesn't love the girl... if you was in that situation, would you believe it? well for me, i believe him as he said that he doesn't love the girl.. why? because during that time, as he said that, he looked at me, straight to my eyes and you can tell that he wasn't joking.. the most evidence that he still love me is when he cry so sincere.. if you where there, i can tell that you can say that he was deeply inlove with me and nothing was change..
it seems to be unfair or something coz he leave for nothing.. then he leave me for a girl he doesn't love and then i 'll be the one to wait... but i think i also deserved that.. if i was a good girlfriend to him it will not happen.. i'm shy to go out with him and sometimes i rejected him.. that's me before and now, i realized how much i love him... if i only give him a time or even a single time to spend with me i think he will never do that.. and by the way... after that, he thank me for understanding him and he said the magic words.. the
I LOVE YOU!! whahahaha..
i don't care for our future coz, who knows?i can't tell what will happen next.. it might happen that we are meant to be or not.. the important thing is it was proven that he still love me.. patience will be in me.. i can wait until he come back.. i know i look obsess or stupid but for me it isn't a stupidity act.. it's just love.. a love that only me and him can control.. we both love each other.. i don't want to regret it.. loosing him is so hard but we deserved to have a space.. i should let him go first...

that's all for now..
*another cut off*
the other part will be posted soon.. =]

New Year, New life..

2008-12-29T20:09:00.000-08:00

From Others.....

well, almost everyone are really excited for the big celebration of the coming year, the 2009.. we always wanted to celebrate it every year, right? so many blogs/entries are now posted in there site to know there feelings about it and what's new things they're up to..everyone has their own opinion about it but of course, one thing is very common on it. you know what it is? well, every year we always have a list of so called new year's resolution and it's stated there the things you want to do for a change.. have you listed one? .. new year, new life, new addiction(as joan said) and a new beginning.. well. that's true.. so before the year comes to an end, i want to left all the bad memories of 2008.. to begin my new life for the year 2009..

It Comes to An End..

goodbye 2008 and hello 2009..
i hope it will be a perfect year for me.. i really hope so.. but before looking forward for my future in 2009, let me first take you backward to remember the things that happened to me in a year 0f 2008..

january 14 was my luckiest day of my life.. because it was the day when i said "YES" to the person that i loved.. saying yes to a person like that was a big issue for my classmates and batchmates.. i even don't know why.. it's just so happened that i'm well known in our section and even in the other section.. i mean i'm not super popular as a superstar or something but i'm easily recognized by others and a girl like me is always a big issue especially i'm studying to a school that full of rumors and "chismosa" hahahaha.. well, back to my topic, my boy, paul, was very happy having me in my life and so he was to me.. he's my really first boyfriend.. i mean, my past boyfriend was just a bf on air.. we never see each other but i know him and he know me.. but we never spend together and never will because we're to far from each other.. (a long distance relationship) i know it never last.. hhmmp! so Paul was my 1st bf for real, my 1st guy whom i go out with, or my first guy.. so he's my 1st love, not just puppy love.. months are past and we're now having some troubles.. we can't spend a single day for us.. i always refuse him because my mother was so strict.. we last for 11 months and now, we're over..this is the guy i'm talking about.. my ex boyfriend and now my bestfriend.. but we never treat ourselves as a bestfriend.. because as a lover you can feel that there are still love that left in you but your just too afraid to show it.. i can't explain it very well, but i'll try.. let me start in this sentence, as they said, if both of you are really connected to each other or if you really love each other or your heart is one you can feel that your love ones are sad, or disappointed or he/she love you so much.. just like what happened to me.. i really love this guy and he return it well.. but after a few months, he decided to broke me up but still i doesn't believe him.. he never give me a valid reason why he broke up with me and he just texted me that we are break.. days were past after we broke up and little by little the reason came out from his friends.. that he LIKES another girl.. i cried so much coz i never expected him that he can do that.. and the most painful part is he likes the girl whom i hate a lot.. and now i hate her more[i'm talking about the girl.. but as the day go on i realize that she has nothing to do about it but in some part she did a mistake.. she only wants to be courted because she's single not because she likes him too.. that's the stupid reason i've ever heard.. in my part, she just wanted to play with the boy i loved.. and i hate that but some times, i realized that i think he deserved that..

*****cut off*****

i decided to cut the story there and i think i just continue my story after the new year or some other times.. wait for it.. =]

*******

NEW YEAR!!!

everyone has there own gifts now.. so i made one too.. this not that super special but it's made with love.. hope you'll like it..

i have no time for giving this to you one by one.. im so sorry.. but you can grab it here..
here's the link..
code

late gifts/ my other sites

2008-12-27T19:03:00.000-08:00

note:
this is a very late post.. this is some of the gifts left in my files that are not yet posted here at my site.. sorry to bel and kimiie.. hope both of you can understand..

this is a gift from kimiie.. thanks sis.. love it..

this is another gift from bel.. i really like your gift..

sorry for the late post of it.. i've been busy of something and i can't upload the pictures in here so it was posted today.. by the way i only got 3 gift from my cobloggers but i' fine with it, as they said, it's better to give than to receive, ryt? maybe nxt tym i can gain more of it.. hahaha i hope so.. =]

Be my Guess Here

well, i made two other site where you can found my photoblog(1) and a sort of poems(2)..
the first one is a photoblog were you can found different pictures of mine and some of my other photo for some updates.. i just posted some of my pictures there and it's not that much to see..
here's the link_ pixes
if you want for a link exchage, you can tagged me there and pls do drop some comments there, no silent readers.. =]
the other blog site is a place where you can read the poems i made.. i made it on my own so i hope you'll appreciate it.. i hope you'll leave some comments there and for a link exchange again plz tag me..
here's the link_poems
plz. visit now.. =]

Series Of topics!!

2008-12-26T21:48:00.000-08:00

♥MY CHRISTMAS CELEBRATION IN OUR OWN HOME

well, it's just been a simple christmas yet i'm so happy.. i stay home and enjoy it and wait for the noche buena.. while waiting for the christmas eve, we went to church and we watch the "kagharong" it is the searching of the christ.. it was so nice watching it.. it was held at the church and it was remarkable.. hahaha.. when we went home, i just watch some movies then after a few minutes i went to bed.. i was so tried so i didn't wait for the 12'o clock.. it was a regret for me.. i woke up 1:00 of the morning and it was i hour pass.. that time, the 1st thing i do was to open my gifts.. it's not that much but i treasure it..

i look for my celphone and there are some who greeted me.. i just can't feel the christmas eve and i dont know why.. or maybe i just knew it but i'm kip denying it from myself.. i'm expecting someone.. but he's busy.. busy with some other stuff.. hahahaha..

in the morning, he texted me and saying so many sorry which felt me so happy.. hahaha i don't know.. we're not together but she treat me so special.. haha they will have their xmas party and he was with the padre's and choir and some other stuff of the church... he's a "sakristan".. during their xmas party, we're texting and he told me that he was about to sing because they requested it.. well, the highlight? he dedicated his sog to me.. hahaha i'm just so happy about that.. at first, i thought he's just joking but at the end i believe him.. i don't need some evidence coz i know he's singing.. hehehe the song was LOVEBUG by jonas brother.. hahaha
such a wonderful day.. is it? (december 25)

♥THE HIGHLIGHTS

well, it was another great day for me.. hahaha..we hanged out with my friends and we're so happy and have fun.. but the more highlight part was we met, the boy that i was trying to tell you that treat me so special.. it was so cool.. he's so cute! super!.. he's simple pero astig.. hahaha
after we met.. we went home.. i was so lucky.. he was a kind of person that is so kind, cute and give you his true smile.. hahaha

when the sun was gun, i picked up my phone and started texting with my friends.. hahaha it was so fun.. we talk about him.. hahaha after awhile my ex by replied to my text.. we're friends now.. he was having a trouble to the person he's courting.. well, as his bestfriend, i give him some advices even though it looks so cheap.. hahaha but for me it help him.. i know that he's always smiling when i texted him like that even though i don't see him.. i don't know, i just can feel it..
well, it was a aother great day.. i'm just so lucky! =]

♥TWILIGHT REVERSION!!!

i open my account in multiply and every post i read it's abour the filipino versr of twilight! i hate that topics! why that filipino loves to reverse any kind of songs or movie from other country, especially when it was very popular and on the top.. not only twilight even in a television shows, they copy it.. like gossip girls, my girl, and others.. can they have there own style.. there are lots of filipino out there that was so angry about it and i'm one of it.. i just hate that thing.. as they say, we, filipinos are smart and creative but why we cant show it.. oh please.. i know we can.. =]

♥MY RAINY DAY

I dont really know why i'm feeling so blue right now.. i stay home coz it's so rainy.. i'm just surfing the internet today and i open an account in myspace.. it's not yet finish but i think i'll enjoy there.. i also fun of reading some onlyn story that really so inspiring.. hahaha i'm cold right now but i'm still happy.. hahaha ang hirap ng may sipon.. i can't breath normally..... hahahaha

later this morning my ex bf texted me that really surprising.. you know what it is? he's asking me if he can court me again.. some part of me was so happy but some part of me hate him for that.. i rejected him.. i said NO! He left me becausse he likes other girl and now he want me back? i think it's wrong.. so i refuse him.. did i do that correctly? i hope i won't regret it..

♥NOTE:

i can't upload some pictures that i want to show you.. especially the gift that was given by bel and kimiie.. sorry guys.. i hope you'll understand.. i think it will be delay.. but i'll make sure it will be post soon.. =]
comments will be highly appreciated.. thankz..

A gift for everyone!! =]

2008-12-23T20:09:00.000-08:00

after receiving a gift from mei of stuffsetskits.bs.com i was inspired to make my own gift for you everyone.. it's not that hot or cool as some can do but it was full of hardwork to look or atleast to look it presentable for you.. well, it just simple but i i hope you'll like it.. i made to kind of it,. it's either for friendster, multiply and here in blogger,. hope you'll like it guyz,. =]

here's the picture of it,. =]

it will sent to all of my friends,. just wait for it guyz..=)
that's all for now,. i'll be back later,.=]
i have to sent it all of my friends.. =]

updates.. =]

2008-12-21T20:43:00.000-08:00

hi guyz.. it's been so long after i post a new entry and sorry for that.. by the way, i got a new gift or present from my co blogger ms. mae of stuffsetkits.bs.com.. i'm very thankful for reserving that kind of gift.. i treasure it a lot.. hehehe (to ms. mae: plz. wait for my reply for it.. i'll make one for you.. =]) another thingmr. wolfwood16 won the contest and i'm ready for his award..hehehe( to mr. wolfwood16: your award is ready..=])..
honestly this is just a quick post, so will not make it too long.. hmmm.. i just updated my to another site.. plz add me there.. i hope you'll do it.. hehehe

so here's the sites:
my Passion.. _ this is some composition made by me.. specifically, it is a site full of poems and written by me.. =]

pixes.._ this site refers to my own phot album or a bunch of pixes and upload by me..

hope you'll visit them.. thanks a lot.. =]
that's all for now..
bye! =]

thanks to Mae(stuffsetkits.blogspot.com)

2008-12-21T17:58:00.000-08:00

yeeeh!! my very first gift!! hahaha..
thanks to Mae of stuffsetkits.blogspot.com who gave me this present! hahaha
i really appreciate her effort to it and i'm lucky to have one..
hahaha

thank you so much.. i'll make you one as my return.. hope you'll like it too..
=]

I'm BACK!!!

2008-12-17T21:49:00.000-08:00

AFTER 10 YEARS!!hahaha i'm back for blogging.. i have my personal reason why i left blogging.. but be happy for me coz i'm back.. but honestly, i'm having a bad time in this past few months so i really don't have time for blogging.. i'm little bit busy for something and i'm not i the mood,. why? i tell you the story later on..

having a contest is very hard for me.. why? because i don't know how to manage a contest and on how to catch my co-blogger(you)attracted or catch their interest in my contest,. and i guess that was the first reason why i cut my contest a little bit earlier.. secondly, i'm quite busy in some stuff like reading a new story through internet or books.. thirdly, i'm not in the mood after the "broke up thingy". that was the main reason i guess.. but i'm okei now, i moved on.. =]
to complete the data about the "broke up thingy" i'll post a blog about that,. hahaha
another thing, i looking for a new home beside "blogger to experience a new thing.. a subdomain or my very own domain.. hahaha.. i wish i have one.. who wants to give me one of it as a gift for me this christmas? hahaha just pm me (tria_divine)..

that all for now.. but by the way, thanks for those people who visit me all the time.. kip in touch.. =] your free to link me up and just tell me so.. =]

Contest was closed..

2008-12-17T21:36:00.000-08:00

the contest was closed earlier..
for some personal reason..
but there was a winner..
it was MR. WOLFWOOD16 of ideasloading.blogspot.com.. =)
he is taking up computer but i forgot his course..(hahaha sori kuya)
but he's cool and his blog rocks..
hope you'll visit his site..

to wolfwood16:

i will just pm you to claim the reward..
and tnx for joining my contest..
kip in touch..=]

merry chirstmas to you all......
kip smiling and enjoy and feel the spirit of christmas..=]

no friendster!!!

2008-11-16T20:16:00.000-08:00

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Generated Mon, 17 Nov 2008 04:14:03 GMT by squidcache2.gbxsc.friendster.com (squid/2.6.STABLE9)

this was the only note left every time i open the friendster site.. to bad.. this is the biggest community site in this entire world and it's a great lost. i know that it were many site out there that has this type of site but friendster was the most popular and well know site.. this is really a big issue.. it was our topic when i was chatting with my friendster addicts, friends and classmates.. i hope it will be fix!! i'll pray for that..!!!

I NEED HELP PLZ..

2008-11-15T20:12:00.000-08:00

i really need help.. I have a domain n co.cc but i didn't know how it works. a need a person who is willing to teach me in managing or explaining who to manage a domain or a site.. i've been in hosting but.. ggrrr.. i"m totally an idiot about that.. i just cant handle it.. can you just tell me or recommend something that can be useful or can be helpful to solve this problem. i really desire to have my own site but it seems my wish will never come true.. can you just help me plz.. you can leave a comment after this post or email me at Deadlyoutcast14@yahoo.com or add me in ym: tria_divine.

another thing is... how much cost you to buy a domain.. I know it's through paypal but what it the best domain i can have? recommend me something..

about a photoshop... i really need that to have.. some offering plz.. how much it cost? is there any free.? plz answer.. =]

this all for now.. i hope you'll help me.. plz.. plz..
hope you'll help me.. =]

Quotes Roll

2008-11-15T01:47:00.000-08:00

Part two

"text message"

- a guy texted his girl twice: d 1st txt goes....

"sa2ktan kita hindi kta mhal..
ka2limutan kita hindi ka importante
lo2kohin kita hindi kita se2ryosohin
su2wayin kita hindi kita su2ndin
aawayin kita hindi kita pgsi2lbihan..

- the girl got angry at the guy and erased d guy's 2nd txt..
she decided 2 end there relationship.
after the break up,
the guy committed a suicide!
d girl took his bf's cp 2 read the second txt..
from d sent items.. it goes.....

"basahin m yan from the last word to the first"

- then the girl started to cry...

"Left"

he left me empty and shattered..
i told him.. i needed him..
but hell!
u know what he told me?

"if you need me, i need someone too..
and sorry, it's not you..!! =(

"dream"

after a long tym, i got the chance 2 see him again..
he smiled at me and i did the same.
he asked me if i'm doing well and i nodded..
then the words instantly came of me and i started to say...

" i miz you so much.. i miz ur voice, ur ees,
the touch of ur hand, the way you crack jokes, d words i love you..
i miz d way we were b4..
i hugged him tight.. "

that's how i still love him..
and then..
i woke up..

" If "

this qoutes touchees me and i want to share it to you..

"if you see me walking the roead with someone else,
it's not becoz i like that person's company,
it's becoz you were not brave enough to walk beside me.."

"if you hear me talking about that person all the tym,
it is not becoz that person pleases me,
it is becoz you were too deaf to hear my heart beats.."

"if you feel me falling w/ someone new,
it is not becoz i luv that person,
it's becoz you were not there to catch me as i fall"

"Destiny"

minsan mapaglaro ang tadhana..
mahal ka - ayaw mo.
mahal mo - ayaw nman sau..
pero ang masakit eh ung..
mahal ka at mahal mo
pero..
D NAMAN KAU!!

"Love"

if you love someone, love him as what he is..
as what he had and as what he could ever be..
because real love felt from within..
..not as what your eyes can see..

another quotes from my phone.. this quotes really touches my heart. i guess it also touches yours..

top quotes in my phone.. =]

2008-11-13T06:25:00.000-08:00

LOVE QUOTES...

"fixing a broken heart"

fixing someone's broken heart

is much more like treating a disease....

no matter how hard you try,
if your not the right medicine..

you can "NEVER" cure the pain..

"quoted love"

version one:
kung mhal m ang isang tao..
ipadama mo ang pgmamahal m sa kanya!
pero wag by qoutes dhil....
ung qoutes n pnasa m s knya,
gling sa isa png taong mhal m.=(

vesion two:
kung mahal mo ang isang tao..
ipadama mo ang pgmamahal mo sa knya!
pero wag by qoutes dhil masasaktan la lng..
why?
dhil ung qoutes na pnasa mo sa knya..
ipapasa nia sa taong mas mhal niya.. =(

"whoever it will be..."

khit anong uri pa ng tao ang taong mhal mo..
wag mong hyaang mwala siya sa buhay mo..
wag mong pkinggan ung ibang tao..
icpin mong cya ang buhay mo
at ipagla2ban mo khit kanino..=)

"i love you"

I LOVE YOU..
salitang mdaling bitawan
pero mhirap panindigan..
masarap pniwalaan
pero mahirap asahan..
higit sa lhat.....
ngpdadala ng sobrang kaligayahan..
khit minsan wlang katotohanan..=(

"Love"

it's easy 2 love sumone who simply
smiles..
talks..
and stares at you..
the only hard thing about that..
is how 2 make that person
fall for you..

"Honesty"

when you love
just be honest!
remember that..
it is better to tell the truth..
to make someone cry than
to tell a lie...
to make someone smile..

"Secrets hurt a lot"

mhirap mgmahal ng palihim..
nsasaktan kna pero wala kang mgawa..
kundi itago pa rin..
pero dba?
mas masakit kung pag aralan syang limutin
gayong ikaw pala ang taong
minahal mya rin ng palihim..

it's not yet finish.. i have so many qoutes to share but that's al for now.. i'll share another quotes to be post so.. read it all.. comments will be appreciated so plz do it as my favor.. hahaha just comment my post.. =]

LAST BLOG FOR THE DAY..

2008-11-10T05:07:00.000-08:00

updates..

after some weeks having the skin made by xaiorene now i'm moving to the skin made by a 16 years old girl.. i forgot her name.. so just look at the credits.. for futher, it's here 1st blogskin but it seems that she's a prof. great job.. i want to thank her for my new skin.. (drop some comments =])
i'm not yet finished editing my site so sorry for that.. i'll just edit them if i have tym tomorrow.. the comments and tags are highly appreciated and tnx for some people who just visited my site and linked me up..
anyway i've just post a blog.. intitled: GLOBALIZATION.. =)

Examination on the go..

we will have a test tomorrow(nov.11).. i need to review so i'm now signing off but before that i want to share something.. we will have a test in geometry about the similarities, ratio and proportions and for the social, about the Spaniard etc. and for chemistry it will be about the equilibrium and swifting.. i hope i'll got some high score.. pray for me!! =]
anyway we have a test today in research.. i'm totally busted.. i didn't review properly.. it's very hard because it's an explanation type.. research always give me a headache.. hehehe i hope the result will be fine..

I'm so Lucky..

it's my lucky day.. i just tell you next tym.. =] bye!!
see you next tym..

Globalization..

2008-11-10T02:36:00.000-08:00

I forgot that we will have a test that day so

I'm not prepared for that quiz and almost half of the class are not prepared..
we're stubborn and a headache for our teachers.
we please the student teacher to give us atleast 15 mins for the review.

honestly, I'm not a type of person that can analyze,

memories and understand a topic in just one blink. so
it's senseless. but anyway, it's fun because we become one or we become unite..
global or asking for an answer or cheaters in a test, that was just haappened to us..
we cheat. we all cheat.. hahaha were bad..

but still fun.. because even our teacher told us the answer.. it is really fun test.. =]

gaining more knowledge

2008-11-08T07:41:00.000-08:00

i'm a newbie or a beginner in this kindof site
so my site is a mess up..
my layouts is not made by me but i'm aiming to have my own..
the shoutbox is quite simple and there are so many things are missing in my blog..
like twitters, a complete data of stats, previous post and feeds.. etc..
but i'll promise you that it will be recontruct sooner..
so wait for it..
i'll post a new blog tomorrow and i'll make a twitters..
hope you'll be one of my followers.. =]

until here...
nytz everyone!!
it 12 o'clock..!!
i guess i should greet you.. gud morning..
bye!!

quick post..

2008-11-08T04:33:00.000-08:00

sorry for not posting any blog anymore..
I'm little bit busy right now..
but surely after this days i'll be more active again..
anyway.. i'm trying to have some new sites and i hope it will be publish soon..
plz wait for it.. =]

bye! see you soon..

UNDAS 2008

2008-11-01T01:23:00.000-07:00

today is the 1st day of november and
we're celebrating the ALL SAINT'S DAY..
we're planning to visit my grandfather in the cemetery today..
we will bring some foods,drinks, and etc.
or the things we will use during that time..
i feel so excited to visit my "lolo's puntod"
and meet my cousins and old friends there..
the cemetry is so big
so i guess i can't see all the people i want to see again
especially my formal classmates in elementary..
i really miss them..

i guess it will be fun and i will really enjoy that visit..
and i wish no spirit will appear in my face..
hahaha
we will not be there over night..
i really don't like it..
i can't sleep in a cemetry..
it's cold and crepy!
i hate it..
but meeting my cousin will be fun..
hahaha
but of course i want to visit my grandfather..
i guess if i will not visit him...
he will show me up..
hhmmmmmmmp!!
i hope it will not happen.. =]

til here..
i gonna go now..
bye!
*whooosh*

deadlyoutcast is signing off!!....

UPDATES!!

2008-11-01T01:14:00.000-07:00

after so many years of waiting...
i finally updated my blog..
as you can see my blogskin is so new..
now, I love KAWAII!!
before, i really hate kawaii because it look to girly..
so i hate it..
but now, I regret the things i say before..
kawaii is cool and really nyc to look at..
and every kawaii are seems to be perfect in every blogspot i saw..
i really adore all the bloggers who use kawaii templates..
i can say that it's cool and pretty..
It also look you young, i guess.. haha

this past few weeks i'm qiute busy..
so i didn't post a new blog until now..
this just a rush post..
so i'm sorry if i commit some mistake will writing this blog..
and i need to go to the cemetery..
today is NOVEMBER ONE..
UNDAS 2008 poh ngaun..

okei.. i got a go now..
bye..
til next tym..

anyway.. tnx to all who visited my site and tagged me up..
i want to see you soon..
hehehe and all comments and tags are highly appreciated!! =]

WE'RE LOSING...

2008-10-19T06:36:00.001-07:00

YES! we're losing..
the Laboratorians are losing all the courage and supporters
the Laboratorians are losing their believes in their self..
almost everyone pulled us down
and make us feel uncomfortable, losers and weak!!

okei.. I'll admit it..
our drummers and lyres are seem to be boring and nonsense
but we're not the type of school that will give up and
escaped on it.
I know we look so stupid and losers but we fight fairly and clean..
we never do such biased things just to win a game or a competition..
we're always doing it unbiased!!
we are not cheaters..
we don't have to be biased to win because we can fight for our own sake!!
the school never thought us to cheat and be glad of that kind of attitudes..
if we don't deserved to win that competition then it's fine with us..
but be fair!!
we're doing it all by ourselves..
our strategies are made by us for the betterment of our DLC...
and if it is not yours then leave it.. make your own styles..
we are the LABORATORIAN..
whatever happens, whether we win or lose we will fight..
and always be the best!
L A B O R A T O R I A N S
"sorry sa lhat ng nata2maan but I just want to tell you
all the things I want to say..
this post is not harmful at all..."

BAD DAY!!

2008-10-16T03:47:00.000-07:00

I know it's wrong to be on a fight but if i have my own reasons!!
I never get mad for no reason at all..
but she did something wrong..!!
shame on him!!

I know I'm not pretty and i'm imperfect..
I may not be too intelligent but I'm not stupid!!
i hate them!!

criticizing me without knowing me is a great sin for me..
don't ever judge a person with they physical appearance
because you could be wrong..
i hate those people who's "feelingera" that really have an oa attitudes and confident in herself/himself..
whoooz!! they really gave me a headache..

it's really a bad day!!

Scrabble

2008-10-14T07:05:00.000-07:00

INTER HIGH PLAYERS

3RD YEAR

Emmarson
Faustino
Genesis
Leand
Rolando
Ivan

4TH YEAR
Mikko
Francis
Bryan
James
Alain

they are our players..
"malufet"
even we lose so many times
we never give up..

PROJECTS

bibliography(research)
statement of the problem(research)
composition(drafting)
orders(arts)
chemical(chem.)
notebook/filecase(geo)
taj mahal and great wall_tangible(social)
etcetera!!

look..
too many projects that i need to do.
I'm being so workaholic person now! =]
hate to be a junior but fun!! =]

DLC(drum and lyre chore)

practice every 2:00 pm (sharp??)
so busy preparing to the CATANDUNGAN FESTIVAL
and the competition..
wish as luck!!

anyway i'm a lyre.. (music lover.. hahaha)

REBORN

i just change my skin and i'm a first timer in using kawaii of 2nd tym..
it's girly and totally made me a pinkaholic!! hehehe

that all, i guess.. =]

LET'S TAKE A BREAK!!

2008-10-14T06:43:00.000-07:00

yes!
after ten years..
i was honored to be free..

SEMBREAK..

1 week vacation but..
it's so nonsense at all..
we are now having our sembreak but there are so many things to be done..
like completing our requirements and projects..
we are also practicing our dlc for the competition..

it's not a sembreak at all..
and it was our first sembreak but it's terrible!!
"tambak p rin ang trabaho quh!!"

but anyway.. inter high was on roll right now..
we're having a badluck!!
"isa p lng panalo nmin"
hate it..

but we have the opportunity to win..
at least we win in our 3rd game..
wish as luck.. =]

Round of Applause

2008-09-27T07:28:00.000-07:00

I can't believe that I'm finally a good blogger..
I help my classmates on their blog..

LIST

Catherine
Zyrene
Valerie
Shikara

they are a good bloggers and their composition can make my nose bleed..
their terminologies was so deep and can't handle it..
but...
I'm proud because even I'm not a good blogger as they are or a good journalist..
I can say that I'm good in codes.. hehehe

It's not yet finished it will be soon updated.. =]
just wait for it.. =]

again.. i want to take jocille for helping me to gain knowledge about blogging
and i guess I was improved.. And for ate meimei who help me for the betterment of my blog..
check out my new blog site..

it's VOGUEDOLL.. it's my very own compositions.. =]
drop some comments plz.. =]

Cold but still Hot

2008-09-21T01:53:00.000-07:00

It's so cloudy today and it really freezing me out..
because there is a typhoon..
it's not a big deal for me..
we always suffer for a typhoon since birth!! hehe
now we are in signal no. 2 but we're fine here..
no rain.. no wind.. just breeze that freeze me out.. =]
we never bother.. SANAY NA!! =]

anyway our ice candy is very MABENTA today even it is very cold day..
freaky ryt?..
they feel so hot even it's very cold..
or maybe I'm just the only one who feel the cold thing..
I'm sick..
I have a cold eh..

but..
tnx to you costumers we have lot of money today.. hahaha

RANKING

2008-09-21T01:43:00.000-07:00

Our ranking was finally release on us.
I'm not included to top 10 nor top20 but I'm top 25.. (hehe)
I'm really shock when the ranking was release..
all of us was shock too..
it really questionable to us..

i deserve my rank but then
top 10 was really wrong..
the deserving one pull down and the bias people were pulled up!!

here's the ranking..

lyzka 95.82
pamela 95.29
alyssa 94.72
jade 94.63
clarissa 94.22
Vero 94.20
suzanne 94.12
karen 93.85
Ariannee 93.36
valerie 93.34

some are diserving some are not..
i wish they believe in karma..

but anyway geometry pull me behind..
i really hate it..
if YOU have a kind heart..
pm me and help me up with my problem.. =]
here's my ym..
tria_divine

tnx..
x.o.x.o =]

NONE STOP FIGHTING

2008-09-18T04:55:00.000-07:00

We're always on a fight..
even in a simple thing..

for me, It's now our hobby..
my boyfriend and i was 8th months together and there are a big changes on us..

FOR MY OWN SAKE...

i become more serious in a relationship
I sacrifice for him
I'm definitely inlove
gain for inspiration
spoiled for his love
totally his baby (hahaha)

FOR HIS OWN SAKE..

first tym to love
first tym in a realtionship
treat others so nicely
care for me a lot
tease me for our sweet moments (hahaha)
act as my parents (haha)
concern a lot..

I'm totally unfair in give my love as he said but deep inside of me..
I'm totally in love on him and can do for his own sake..
I know i'm being so obsess to him but I know my limitation..
that limitation is my fear..
I mean..
I don't want t limit myself in loving him..
i can't leave without him..
that the truth but I can't say that cause i know it's wrong..
because girl must never show the truth..
I never show him my 100% love that he need..
and that was the reason throughout our fights..
It's my fault..
so i consider his mistake but sometimes i have my own valid reason
so I guess or let say.. I should fight what is right for me..

limitation. limitation. limitation.

i hate u

2008-09-16T07:34:00.000-07:00

headache.stupid.nonsense.
cheaters.copycats.plastic.
backstabber.jealous.insecure.
proud.bitch.liar

words that fits in you..

not one but many..

I hate to say this but I really don't recognize people with that kind of attitudes..
be original..
be contented..
and try your best..

I'm an average human and I commit mistake..
I'm not afraid to failed..
I'll strive more to succeed..

I'm not strong as a rock..
I can't confront a person cause I know they wouldn't mind
and your gonna hurt them..
until the end your still gonna be the wrong one..

learning to accept people with
their differences is easy to say but hard to do..
how can I be thankful If I can't do the things
I want cause I'm afraid to hurt someone's heart..

I'm just like that..
I hate what my attitudes have..
i want to change it and I pray they would be able to think like me..

my point is...............

STOP YOUR NONSENSE ACTIVITIES!!!

help..

2008-09-16T06:16:00.000-07:00

help me..

I got this topic in research that i should tackle about..
the topic is about FASHION SENSE in our school..
I can't think for a title..
but my point is comparing for something...
mean..
a fashion sense of a teenager to an child or adult..
it is usually have different sense of fashion..
so I don't need to research that..
what will be the best title that could fit to a perfect research?..

suggestion will highly appreciated..
tnx.. =]

randomness

2008-09-15T04:48:00.000-07:00

GEOmetry..

let's say that I'm not a good mathematician..
as I expected I got low grades..
having a line of 8 in my card can pull me down..
ranking is not over yet..
but i know I will be in top 20 or something..

PDA grandwinner

by the way I hate the grandwinner in pda..
laarni got the spot..
let's say that she is a good singer and have the potential in singing
but the attitude of a grandwinner can't fit to her..
my bet is buggoy..
I really want him to win but... grrrrrrrrrr..

sorry for telling this especially to those people who love laarni..
I know everyone has their own bet and I'm just sharing it to you..

sorry..sorry..sorry..

my profile will be improve
after gaining more knowledge about blogging..

sponsor.. =]

tnx to ate meimei..
she is the one who give me some knowledge in improving my blog..
tnx ate.. =]

memories..

2008-09-13T22:36:00.000-07:00

today is sunday and I feel so bore..
because there is nothing to do..
I go back to my pass..
let start in this sentence..

MY FRESHMAN LIFE IN HIGH SCHOOL WAS......

it was so great and as I'm thinking it today, it keeps me laughing..
at that year i meet my first love.. actually, i know him since grade 5 or 6 but
he courted me when i was in high school.. upcoming 2nd year..
he was a shy type person who enjoy math subject all the time..

as of me, I'm busy chatting with my friends a
nd never concentrated my study..
I'm not a GC person and
I'm contented on my grades as long as i'm on the 1st section..
I can't say that I'm an intelligent person but
I can say that he(my 1st love) was a smart person and that was our gap..
I look pathetic every time he texted me some problems to solve..
I felt irritated every time he do that..

as time goes by we've i answered him
and we've been committed for only 5 months..
in the exact date of our 5th monthsary we broke up..
honestly it's very hard for me to forget it .. it really hurts..
because he was my 1st love..hmmmm.. i become more stupid
and bad gurl until i meet this boy who change my whole life
and walked with me to the starting line of my new life..
we walk together until we reach today...

it takes me half a year to forget the past..

NOW I'M A JUNIOR HIGH SCHOOL STUDENT.....

this is the beginning of the true story of a high school life..
happiness
sadness
stupidity
strange
love..
etcetera!! =]

FLASHBACK!!

1ST YEAR
i was included on the top 10 list of honor student but after that i was bring down to top 20..
1st grading_top 10
2nd grading_top 20
3rd grading_top 10 again
lastly top 20 again..
it seems I'm dancing CHA CHA.. =]

2ND YEAR
I've been involve to a big issue..
I'm on the fight b/w me and the flirty gurls
who doesn't know how to respect their ates and kuyas..
I meet the person that been my inspiration until now.. =]

3rd year

THIS IS THE TIME I'M INTO RIGHT NOW.. =]

all i can say is I'm happy..
goodluck to this year!! =]

YOUR WRONG

2008-09-11T21:24:00.000-07:00

their glance..
their forceful eyes..
they scare me..
it seems like I'm melting..
melting like an ice..
licked by an eternal flame..

but I won't yield..
i won't let them win..
I can fight their glance..
I can be strong too..

And soon they'll realize that
they're wrong... I'm right..
soon they'll know..

THAT THEY'RE GLANCING AT SOMEONE
WHO KNOWS WELL HOW TO FIGHT!!

Certainly Not Good!!

2008-09-08T05:46:00.000-07:00

Having a boyfriend is a headache..
I think for them but not for me..
but It's natural to have some conflict between you and other persons.
the reason is your getting into a different life style..
I mean....
We all know that we are different to each other and we have our own attitudes.
So if we go along to other person...
It usually cause us to fail in understanding each other..

LIKE WHAT HAPPENED ON THE 6TH DAY OF SEPTEMBER...

On the 6th day of september, I went out for a DATE with my boyfriend.
At first, It was a great day.
the sweetest day and the best damn thing I ever did. why?
because in that time i really enjoy it and
i don't care to the world and to
the things that might happen..
The breeze of the wind and the song of the sea are the only things I can think of..
As the time goes on and the clock are ticking, the wind go badly..
my heart started to beat so fast..
I'm confused that time and i don't know why..
we went to the "uptown" to buy a thing for my project..
I think there's nothing wrong with that but
while we are walking they stare on us with they're strange look
and because of that i felt irritated to them.. but some look on us so nicely..
because of it I felt better and for those people who look on us with they're forceful
eyes... i just ignore them.. but when we are finally bought my things
my Tita saw us and I felt the sky fell down and covered me up until my breathe stop..
my tita HATE my bf..

I refuse to say this but I think It's time....

They thinking too much negative to us..
they can't understand the fact..
all I just want to say is I'm not their baby gurl anymore ..
they can't dictate what my heart should do..
my heart is not their puppet to control..
simple advice are enough for me but please I can't stop my heart..
just let me go and time will say it for me..
but I don't mean that you should stop telling me my limitations
and your advices my point is...
let me be happy and enjoy my life and go on with no regrets..
you don't need to vulgarize me..
i know what I'm doing and I know my limitation..

that time I want to cry, shout and forget it because I know she will tell my mom..
I'm very confuse..
my mom didn't know it ad because of my tita.... haiiizzzzzzzzzz!!
I'm really confuse........................
after that we finally went home..
my bf was very worried that time and he try to make me feel better..
I really appreciated his concern about me so I felt better..
when I got home my mother knew it so she started to talk the I started to cry..
I know I'm wrong in a case that i didn't ask permission.. but..
I have my valid reasons.. I just want to have fun and to be with my boyfriend..
I'm sorry for what I've done but I wish to have my freedom to get what i want.....

MORE UPDATES..

2008-09-08T05:38:00.000-07:00

elow everyone again nd again.. i just update my skin here..
i really love black and pink combination..
so if you have some suggestion.. tag me..

i finally updates my other stuff like friendster and multiply..
at the same time i for got my other stuff like piczo.. hehe
by the way you can just click the link under my proffy.. links are stated there.

post will be posted as soon as possible..
more subjects will contain in my site wen the time comes i'm not busy..
hmm.. so as of now.. just sit back and relax
and enjoy reading my entries and other stuff in my site..

♥♥♥♥ thnx!!♥♥♥♥♥

multiply and friendster..

2008-06-28T18:53:00.000-07:00

♫HI EVERYONE LONG TIME NO UPDATE WITH ME♫

It's been so long without updating my blog and it's because of my multiply and friendster account..

I'm always updating me for adding some comments and friends..

I also update my profile like adding some pictures, posting a new shoutout and changing my profile background..

but I'm back for writing some blogs especially about the happenings in my life..

update!!

2008-06-21T03:51:00.000-07:00

I have nothing to blog on ..
I just want to update this site.. hehehe
hhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmm..
this past few months I'm very busy updating to my friendster acct.
I have already 2 acct. but yet it's not full..
you can add me up if you want..
i do accept stranger..

punksionista46@yahoo.com friendster 1st acct
Deadlyoutcast14@yahoo.com friendster 2nd acct

bravenet.com

2008-05-21T23:20:00.000-07:00

sorry for the late updates about this blog site..
I'm so very busy for updating my other gigz like friendster, multiply, imeem, hi5 and the latest gig is bravehost.. ryt! I'm hosting to a bravenet site..
at first, It's very hard to do such things for the beautification in my site.. but now, It's growing strong.. It's being more updated.. but until now i haven't write anything there.. but soon it will have.. as of now, I will try to give some effort in hosting and as soon as possible I will give you the opportunity to view my site in bravenet..

new stuff for school..

2008-05-21T23:12:00.000-07:00

finally nkabili n rin aq ng mga gamit for this coming school year..
my mom and my bro are the one who bought those stuff for me..
honestly, nta2wa aq sa mga binili nila..
i look a grader.. why?
they bought me a tweety bird pencilcase, 4 different kinds of bratz notebook..
and it's almost color pink.. I'm not a soft pink lover. I'm a deep pink lover and with the combination of black..
yun un mga gusto q.. I look very girly na tlga..
may bag is blue even my umbrella is blue.. but most of my notebooks were in colored pink..
but it's okey.. atleast they are the one who spend the money for my stuff..
i'm an upcoming 3rd year high school but my stuff are like to a grader..

mom nd bro..

2008-05-18T05:12:00.000-07:00

last May 4, umalis ang mom q with my bro for enrolling my bro to UP Los banos for ccollege..
doon magaaral bro q.. two week cla dun at aq.. i stay home with my tita's,couz and tito.. happy together pa rin khit papano pero most of the time the boredom come through my vein.. haha..
but after two wiks.. dumating na cla.. finally umalis na ung my titas q at ksama q na ulit ung mom q pti c bro.. ang dming dmit na pinamili pti school supplies q so I'm very ready na to go to school..
that's all..

teardrops..

2008-05-18T05:00:00.000-07:00

sa isang relationship ndi maiiwasan ang mga conflict b/w the lover.
may masasaktan, may iiyak or maybe can cause to a break up..
at this very moment nagaway kmi ng bf q for not texting him..
it's my fault nman kc eh.. lagi kc aqng nsa harap ng computer.. hindi q na cya maicp..
puro blogging n lng kc ung ina2tupag q..
then i started to cry..
I give all the reason na dpat q sabihin ksu it's worthless..

after some few minutes, pareho ng kming mhinahon nun pero iyak prin aq ng iyak..
pinagusapan nmin un ng maauz kya di nagtgal were okei again..
sobrang understandable cya kya mafali lng kming nagging okei..

lastly, we're so happy na nman at nplitan ng ngiti ang mga luha q.. =)

fresh photos..

2008-05-16T00:23:00.001-07:00

FRESH PHOTOS ' ROLLING

ME.. FAKED SMILE

FRESH SMILE

PIECE CUTIE

LOOKING SOMEWHERE

memories..

2008-05-16T00:15:00.000-07:00

past is past yet it's still killing me now..
through the years, the friendship will never fade away..
my best of friends, friends and fellow classmate.. they are still in my heart..
years, months, weeks, days hours, minutes, and seconds may past but the things that had been done with my old friends will stay fresh forever..
I grew up with them..
made some foolishness..
told crazy stories..
the joy they had given was the best gift ever!!

GREAT DAY!!

2008-05-14T04:44:00.000-07:00

IT'S OUR 4TH MONTHSARY....
HOPE MORE MONTHSARY TO COMES..
STAY INLOVE.. HEHE
LUV YOU TEMZ Q..

CHANGES

2008-05-14T04:17:00.001-07:00

CONTINUATION OF BOREDOM............

for being such a bored girl.. the result is taking to many discoveries in herself.. hehe
ang laki n pla ng binago.. I really love what I have been through... pero cympre, i want my fatness before. but it's okay what i have right now..

after some hours.. inayos q ung lhat n bgay n dapat ayusin.. because of thise bordom factor, we decided to went to market.. ksama q ang tita q.. sobrang saya nman khit umuulan..

this day is full of joy at dito nagta2pos ang day q.. hindi pa pla.. when i go to bed, that's the time my day will end.. to much love has been given..

boredom...

2008-05-14T03:04:00.001-07:00

let's have a flashback at the beginning..

8:00
In that time, I just woke up.. hehe late na ako ngcing dahil late n rin aq ntulog.. cympre for being so concious about myself.. I washed my face, brushed my teeth, ate some breakfast and talk a bath.. I consumed almost half of two hours before I finished those cleaning stuff.

9:45 to 11:30
At this time, I just sit down and turn on my computer and surf at the internet but... no internet network so ngedit na lng aq ng my pictures.. nagbantay din aq n aming mini store..
sa pagedit q ng mga picture.. narealized q na I have changed a lot.........

flashback..

2008-05-12T19:32:00.000-07:00

i miss nitrieda family!!.. sila ang nksama q during our educatinal trip in aklan.. sila ang nging kaleague ko during our activities. sobrang saya q as in.. I'm not close sa iba kc nahi2ya aq but i still built some friends there and that's why i really miss them.. sa NITRIEDA na buo ang isang pamilya, pagka2ibigan,pagmamahal at ligaya sa mga panahong were having our camp.. the sad thing is hindi n kmi nkasama sa field trip pti sa pledge night kc nkabook n kmi in cebu pacific in the 5th of april. kainis nga kc sobrang bitin.. we have no choice kc eh.. so i really miss them.. even though the time has pass away.. the memories will stay in my heart.. nitrieda is still rocking on!!

first entry..

2008-05-12T05:37:00.000-07:00

for my first entry i would like to share with you my great day today..

sobrang saya ko ngaung araw na 'to dhil sa mga pangya2ri tulad n lmang ng paki2klitan sa pinsan q.. My cousin is a 4 years old girl named gwen manlangit.. she's cute but very tough girl.. mhilig kming maglaro ng takbuhan and take note, plagi niya aq talo.. hahaha.. hhhmmm let's say na lng na minsan lng aq manalo sa kanya.. cmpre nman kc eh mbgat aq tumakbo nuh at isa pa, mdalas aqng tinatamad but cympre masaya kc nka2tuwa cya pgnagla2ro.. she never cry pero pagtinakot tska lng cya iiyak..

I've also went to bayan to enjoy things there.. pumunta kming natasha, century, rakdel and cympre sa market to bought some foods and groceries in our small business.. not a monkey business hah.. =)

kasama ko ang dalawa kong tita. umalis kmi ng 3:00 ng hapon at nkauwi kmi ng mga 6:15 ng hapon.. hindi pa nman cyang gabing gabi..we had happy happy moment within 3 hours and 15 mins.

pagdating s bhay, we ate meryenda and I do my habit.. I opened our computer and start blogging.. I made a new blog.. intitled " dearest diary".. naicp q lng gumawa.. I have no idea kung bkt but I think kc wla lng aq mgwa w/c is true.. so sa blog na'to i'll share and take ou to journey which will guide yout to know the things about me or some updates about me or it's more likely called.. sharing my life to you..

so, dito ngta2pos ang day q..
i'll update tomorrow for another happenings about me..